Eating up some movies and TV episodes

Been consuming a lot of (visual) media lately. Let’s dish it out-
amybeth-mcnulty-as-anne-shirley-in-anneAnne with an e- episode 1
This! This was wonderful. The story is told so beautifully and everything is so whimsical. I’ve never read Anne of Green gables before (consciously, I once borrowed it from the library but never got into it) and I am BOTH loving and excited for the story and the execution and how it’s being told. The vibe is so peaceful and intelligent. Anne is a wonderful. My stomach is in knots thinking about the next episode and what’s going to happen. My only qualm is that it was a bit long, but I watched it in two parts so it was perfect. Would definitely recommend watching.
image_e4790569Kiki’s delivery service
Ah, Miyazaki. I am so ashamed I haven’t watched much Miyazaki because I know he is wonderful and I know I like his work a lot! I love how his stories are enchanting and SO different. I find that a lot of narratives around me are so like mine and the ones I’m accustomed to seeing around. Miyazaki is like a breath of fresh air. He is different without being different. He doesn’t have the layer of being different. He is just like that naturally. I don’t know if I’m making any sense, my brain just feels that way.
Kiki’s delivery service was so nice to watch. It has all the Miyazaki components and sweet parts. I would definitely recommend this one too- it’s about witches, the Witch spirit, about learning to live, about being kind and helpful and hardworking. And trying. And you know, lots of life things. Go watch it.
Westworld – episode 1
Rosianna from YouTube talks about this a lot. I watched this video about it and admittedly it sounds super interesting and intriguing. And it was. Except it wasn’t the clearest. I don’t know if I’d have been able to understand what’s the reality if I hadn’t watched that video. That video told me a few things and I still was questioning those things while watching it. And it also wasn’t all that gripping. But that’s not necessarily a bad thing. Gripping usually follows a formula and isn’t really worth it a lot. Which leads me to my next show.
Unlike the other TV shows on this list, I watched two episodes of this. Wow! Rpund of claps! This show was definitely Gripping. But unlike Westworld, I’m not going to be going back to watching it. Not because I didn’t like it. If it’s on TV I’ll watch it. I’ll read wiki for the summary. But I won’t watch it because I don’t think I’ll be missing anything if I skip out on it. It’s a typical cop show that will follow a certain pattern with an over arching arc and it will be Gripping and a lot of fun to watch but nah. I’ll pass.
synecdoche2c_new_york_posterSynechdoche, New York
I’ve stopped trying to twist my words to show that I liked something obscure and intellectual because I wanted to be such and such a person. Not everything is going to appeal to me.
And this, didn’t. It wasn’t all like that, there were some gems of moments, but it was mostly droning and ununderstandable delicious and weird shit. And it was slow. And I needed something so much else at that time. I was feeling like shit and this movie gave me crap. Would have happily switched The fault in our stars for this.
personal_shopper_kristen_stewart_movie_poster_official-723x1072Personal shopper.
I think Kristen Stewart is fucking gorgeous? Now that that’s out there lemme say that this movie was too. I’m not a horror movie person and especially not a watch horror movie alone person. But God this was good and perfect. It’s a horror movie but more of not a horror movie. It was eerily peaceful and calm, it gives space unlike filling it with a lot of things. And the story was engaging, although it might have been a little predictable, but I happen to be a little dumb, so that didn’t come in my way of enjoying it at all. A lot of the movie is the performing much less the happening. And I loved it. And it was quite deep. Unlike other horrors, which are mostly jump scares and chants to expell ghosts. Watch itttt.
Bob’s burgers
This show is weird as fuck and I like that fuckery.
Keeping up with the Kardashians
The only trashy/reality TV I like- America’s next top Model and Masterchef. I can stomach other cooking competition shows too. But that’s my peak.
So why did it watch this? I think it was curiosity and also the fact that I felt that I was basing a lot of my opinions around the Kardashians from wrong assumptions. Also rich people have to have interesting lives yeah?
I watched the first episode of the 13th season, ie the current one. Before the Paris robbery and all. And ugh, it was so dissapointing! I didn’t care about their Dash store or their sentiment to it at aaaaall. And for a hypy drama show, the drama was sub par. It was a let down. I liked the visuals and some parts of it were certainly fun to watch but overall, a big meh. I loved the parts with Kanye’s show. I thought Kim looked drop dead gorgeous and I am not a fan or even close of her butt or body. It was her face. It’s so gorgeous? I’m sad she doesn’t show plaster that part of her on her social media, but then it’s her choice and I’m no-one to pass judgement. Kim is definitely my favorite. Also the platinum blonde Kardashian with the short hair did really cute space buns but when she put extentions it looked shit.
I don’t know what I’ve portrayed over here about my inclination to the show but I’m still going to watch the next one? Mostly coz of the robbery. Don’t judge I’m critically watching this show as an experiment.
The edge of seventeen
Why is everybody raving about this? It was by no measure bad but even in its genre and type pool it wasn’t the best standing movie out there. I enjoyed the weirdness and I enjoyed the whole thing but on a lower level. It could have been better. It doesn’t touch my favorites list at all or even close.
I haven’t actually finished watching this. Shame on me.
Doctor who – The pilot
Bill- awesome. Loved how she thinks and her sense of humor. Can’t wait to get to know her more.
The story line- classic Doctor Who but not that majestic or magical. It didn’t strike all that much with me. But God did I miss The Doctor! I have so many questions about what he’s been up to! Professor? For 70 years? Oh crap I haven’t watched the Christmas special…
That’s been a lot. I think this is it. I have a wedding to go to tonight. Tell me what you thought of any of these and of my thoughts. Also how is Before I fall. I kinda want to watch it but the camera print that is currently out is so bad and unwatchable.

Some questions for a model #1

Long time no see kids!

A while back, I decided to be nosy about a profession that always grabbed my attention but would never be a profession I could have first hand (because I’m a 5’6 smol person). If you haven’t guessed it, it’s modelling!

I found some lovely people through the power of lovely social media who were willing to let me in on some trade secrets. So without any more yik-yak, here’s is one interview!

This is Miyanda Jacobs Newton.

Why did you choose to be a model? How did your growing up affect it? Did you have any role models when you were younger and how did they affect your decision?
I was scouted 4 years ago in Montreal, Canada. Becoming a model was not in the plans for my near future but I knew with time it would probably happen due to me being very tall. I am (6ft). Being a model allowed me to self express, and automatically became independent because I have to travel on my own. I started modeling at the age of 15 years old and I had to carry myself in a professional manner when it was time to meet with clients. I do not look up to anyone because I am a strong believer in self execution and self growth. I prefer to do research on multiple people in my field and apply it to the way in which I want to go about carrying myself in the industry.
How did your job affect your search for an identity?
My modeling career allowed me to stay true to myself at all times. I began to understand my root more as I have to portray the image I want to be proud of and I want people to see. I walked into my agency here in New York, Ford Models agency and stated “I cannot continue to have my hair straight anymore. I want to be natural, I want to let my afro breath and be seen.” From that moment on I realize how much power I have over my career and how much I understand my being, my root.
What is, according to you, the best part of your job? What’s the worst? What is the thing that makes you angriest about your job?
I am my own business women. I am my own brand. I am my own product. The downfall is clients or the public getting comfortable with the look you may portray. As a female… as a human we grow and aspire to be great. People begin to have expectations of how they think you should look or act because it is what they are use to seeing. I don’t get angry with my job, I grow with it and try to understand the change as they try to understand my growth.
How did your family feel about your decision to take up modelling and have their feelings on the matter changed?
My family is really big on education and a routine way of doing things. I first got signed with an agency in my hometown Montreal, Canada when I was 15. I was still in high school, playing sports and trying to deal with teenage drama. I decided to move to New York to further in my career, the moment I traveled to London in June of 2015 my family came around and realize this may be a blessing.
What kind of freedom do you have when doing, say, a photo-shoot? How do you feel about that?
I feel like I’m swimming in the sea. It clears my mind allowing me to portray whatever person, energy and vibes I need to portray for that shoot. I get excited when I have a photo shoot because I know I’ll enjoy the rest of my day.
What are the things you sacrifice for your job? 
What is your daily diet and work out like? Your secret to perfect legs?
I drink a lot of water, eat veggies and fruits. I love smoothies! No carbs is my secret for a toned stomach. I workout everyday at home for about 45 minutes sometimes it’s 20 minutes on my lazy days. I walk a lot to keep my heart pumping and my legs strong.
What were your favorite school subjects?
I love literature and psychology. I am currently a student at Liberty University studying for my bachelors in Criminal Psychology I take online classes so I can always be available for work.
When do you feel the most vulnerable?
When I’m sick
What does your style say about you? What are the ways you express yourself? Is your job one of the ways you do that? Or do you have to adjust your ways in order to suit the job?
My job adjusts to me. My style has a consistency of classy with my signature scarf. I always have a scarf on unless I’m taking a picture. It is my off camera signature. My style represents the music I listen to. From street style in relation to hip hop, to leather in relation to rock and roll.
What would you be doing if you weren’t modelling?
I only think of what is or will be. Maybes and if’s aren’t considered in my mind or vocabulary.
What do you see yourself doing in the future? What are your biggest fears?
I don’t have any fears and I continue to do what I am doing now. I see myself having a home a big house and that’s the goal.
 What is your biggest insecurity? What’s your biggest insecurity about your body?
I don’t have insecurities I just hate having bad hair days.
How do you feel about introducing yourself as a model? Do you feel like people make assumptions about you based on your profession and physicality?
Of course I understand the stereotypes and the labels of the title of my job and I absolutely love it because it is a big part of who I am. What is understood doesn’t need to be explained and models have our own world and we understand our own reality.
What has modelling done for you? Are you more insecure or secure in your body now? How do you feel about the possibility of your body changing from as it is now?
Modeling has opened so many doors for me to travel and explore. It has opened doors for me to meet some amazing people and attend the most special events. I feel very comfortable with myself and being a model only allows me to be as healthy as I can be. From skin to abs, from hair to nails I always have to be on point. I am a female, I love it, it is only another excuse to take a trip to the mall.
Your biggest struggle you changed into a strength?
Poverty, I used my unprivileged background to concur any unsatisfying situation.
What’s your favorite body part? Least favorite? When do you feel the most beautiful? When do you feel the opposite?
Beauty has to do with my mental state. I feed my brain with knowledge, then look in the mirror and feel more attractive. For me, beauty lies within growth.
Do you feel like you fit society’s standards of femininity and do you think your job reinforces that image?
I think we can all agree that androgyny is the way to go.
Do you ever find yourself changing your behavior in order to suit/fit the role society and media has assigned to you?
No, I don’t confine to society and I know this is what makes me so intriguing.
What are your thoughts on make up? How do you feel about the fact that make up and Photoshop are used to alter an image for it to look picture perfect?
I know it makes the job of the model easier that’s why the increase of “models” has risen so dramatically. I feel bad for those who have to watch our pictures and think that’s the “norm”. The entire purpose of being a model isn’t to be “average”. Photoshop and makeup altered our minds for the worst. If I have a pimple that day, just show it. I’m human, make a little girl feel like she can rock that pimple.
What are your thoughts on body empowerment? What, according you to is your job’s role in it?
Focus on health and the best of you not the comparison of someone next to you. My voice, my work, my being will simply allow you to be the best of you whenever around me because I am just so me. My job plays no role in showing what I believe in. Let’s be real my job wants us all to look unnaturally skinny. It may not be their intentions but it’s what is being portrayed.
I image you must get many unsolicited and all types of comments on your appearance and physicality. How does that make you feel?
I personally don’t care, your opinion is yours and they can’t handle all this goodness anyway. I’ve spent 4 years hearing professional speak on my appearance and 19 years hearing beings state opinions on my style of expression.
I hope you enjoyed reading her lovely words and insights. In the end, model or engineer, we’re all a bunch of people learning how to get by. Tell me more of what you think below!
You can find the model on Instagram here- @miyandajacobs.


I want to become a journalist. I want to find people and stories and I want pull angles out of thin air and I want to always be learning and creating and giving in a creative way. I want to be engaged and focused and excited and collaborative with a fiery passion. I want to try to understand how the world works and then I want to convey it in the words that fit.

What do I do now that I’m not good at it at all?

Welcome to the drinking game!

Have a zero/low calorie drink every time you get hungry!

Let me know if you’re interested in playing. It’s so much fun. Extra points if you mention your beverage of choice!

Warning: teeth staining may occur.

Comment number of drinks you’ve had below so we can all get super competitive!!

i don’t know what i

struck a chord~


i don’t know what i
am doing on my best days,
let alone the rest –
sleep is always over-
or underrated and never
quite the solution

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Turbulent thoughts


I’m forever floating in between acceptance and disheartenment and the will to change. Even though the last one is more like illusion, my weak spot, the previous step to my inevitable failure.

This could be about a lot of things. It is true for many. But I thought this for how I feel about my body (at that time)  (like everything). (I’m way too preoccupied with my body and others).


How can you BE happy? Not a question I have an answer too, nor one I’m asking an answer for. But one I’m incredulously asking everybody. HOW can you be happy?


It’s been one good day followed by two bad ones.

There’s this quote that seems to define me right now, “What’s the point of making my bed in the morning when I’m going to sleep in it at night?”

(at least that’s what I think I was referring to because it was incomplete)

It’s like I’m underwater and I open my eyes, and everything is clear in the start (as clear as it can be under water), and then as the seconds (days) pass, my vision gets blurrier and blurrier, only getting more blurrier. Till I can’t see at all. Till I’m forced to close my eyes. Till it happens all over again.